`showna

Yep. Made a Podcast. Two episodes are posted. (4 have been shot so far.)

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My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

Travel Plans:
As all of you know, or most of you, I will be leaving for Key West, Florida on March 11th. Length of stay: Unknown. I will be flying out of Chicago with a layover in New York and then I'll be flying into Ft. Lauderdale (Cost:$115 via JetBlue.com) and then I'll be taking a shuttle to the Greyhound Station (Cost: $9 via GO Airport Shuttle) and then taking the Greyhound to Miami, and then on to Key West (Cost: $27 via Grehound.com) Sweet shit.

I have a few shoots haphazardly scheduled.
Amanda


Nikki


and Daryl


I'm excited.

I will be flying into Chicago (obviously) when I leave. I was thinking of staying in Chicago for a few days, or perhaps going to Milwaukee for a week or so when I get back. Then I thought... I won't have any winter clothes with me! Hah. So I don't fucking know. :/ Fuck.

I think Obama is going to win the presidency. I hope Clinton doesn't win. I wish Ron Paul would win.

The strike is over. You know what I'm talking about. If you don't, you either live in a hole, or you don't watch TV.

In other news, Yahoo fired their whole design team. I thought that was interesting.

Also in other news, four out of five Americans know Earth revolves around sun.... so... 18% of Americans got it wrong.. and I think that 18% also voted for Bush. (Source)
























My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

Slow week for my blog. Only a couple hundred views. Haha.

Real quick... please vote for my photo here on Picture.com. I win money if you vote. So please do it.

In other news.

I think I've finally decided what the fuck I'm doing. Next month, I'll be in New York with my friend Mark for a bit, and then I'll head to Milwaukee for a week or so. Then, I'll be heading "home" for a bit. I'll pack and all that good stuff... and then head to fucking Key West, FL to hang with my friend Jobie, who a few of you know. He moved down there, without a job, without an apartment, and knowing no one. He now has an apartment, and is a bar manager at (I guess) a really nice hotel. I'm so happy for him. So, I'm going to go down there and take my chance at a getting a job and what-not. I figure, why the fuck not. I tried Urbana and I liked it and all but I don't think it was me. It wasn't a big enough change for me. But hey, if Key West, FL doesn't pan out... I'll just come back. Fuck it.

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Um, yes please?

Random, I made quiche last night and totally burned my fucking hand in the oven. So now there's a big burn mark on my right hand. Sucks.

Random, if you're by chance wanting to watch a new podcast, or you don't know what a podcast is and want to know, OR, better yet, you are looking for an awesome podcast to get into, check out Diggnation. Pretty please. I mean, fuck, I have Kevin (one of the guys on the podcast) as one of my top friends on Myspace. (haha) I'm now realizing how much of a nerd I sound like right now.

<center>If you know Diggnation, this 'toon is hilarious.


Moving on... (haha)... my San Francisco friend, Jesse, tuned me into this amazing website called "Les Concerts A Emporter De Blogotheque" Ummm... don't mind that it's not in english. All of the music video were shot usingone take. some of them are pretty amazing. Worth taking a look.

I've really gotten into two TV shows since my last post. The shows being, "The Wire" & "Six Feet Under". Both of these come in at #2 & #3 on my list of the best shows on TV. Although, "Dexter" ties with one of them. Not to mention, Michael Hall stars in two out of the three. Now, the fabulous Erin has been telling me to fucking watch Six Feet Under for a long while and recently someone else told me to fucking watch it and I finally caved in, as you should. The Wire has been known (I guess) as "the brilliant show that no one watches." The show features the beautiful Dominic West, who is amazing in the show. You may know him from 300 or maybe The Forgotten. I've laughed, I've cried, and I've vocally exclaimed with both of these shows. They are definitely worth watching.

I already feel like I've written too much. So, there you have it.


My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

Is it really 2008? Did 2007 pass before my eyes? It feels like I may have lived a lifetime or two this past year and yet it's not enough. I feel like I'm missing something.

I stop what I'm doing some times, reading, writing, music, conversation, whatever the fuck, I stop, and I sit there, and I think. I remember when my ipod was lost and I didn't have any music while I was walking everywhere and it gave me that much needed time to just sit and think about everything. I sit there, and I get upset. That familiar clench comes into my throat and my eyes tear up. I'm always alone when this happens.

I used to think that it was about one thing in particular... becasue you know, it's easier to blame it all on one thing, to say to yourself, if I could just fix this one thing, all my problems would be solved. There's a multitude of shit that's seemingly "wrong" in my life right now.

The last time I saw you, I think it was to just make sure that you were still, in fact, real, and that you still existed, and weren't just a figment of my chaos-filled mind. My world keeps spinning, out of control, or so it seems, and I'm wondering if anyone ever has control of their lives. A sense of control, sure, but everything could change in just one second.

I think I'm waiting for that second.

Sitting here in a cold apartment, with someone else's cat on my lap, Radiohead is playing, and I need to go and take a shower. I'll be hanging out with people tonight that I will be leaving in less than a week. Tonight doesn't matter. Not really. I'll smile, drink a few beers, meet some new people perhaps, strike up an interesting conversation... what am I doing? I want something fucking permanent in my life. Something steady. Something that makes me happy.

A sad song is playing right now and I'm thinking of you.

My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

You can bid on it right -- [link]

I put one of the paintings up on eBay a few minutes ago. I decided to just see how it goes, I put an insane starting bid on it, because it's going to take a lot for me to part with even one of them. Not to mention my favorite. Then again, I priced it CHEAP compared to what he's selling them for now. Click here to see it. I'm almost hoping no one bids on the damn thing. IF someone does... I'm so taking a trip to Europe instead of moving anywhere. Hell, if it sells, I'm selling the other ones I have and leaving the country for a long while. Fuck it. Not before buying my dream camera. Damn. Sell Sell Sell.

I'm also considering buying a car. I kinda want a honda civic. Wait, fuck that, I'd rather leave the country.

My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

I know I've written about this before but bear with me.

I'm just amazed at how feelings can do a complete turn-around once you're not with them anymore..A few weeks afterwards... a few months... and I've been thinking about past relationships a lot lately, among other things (obviously) and looking back, there are still a few people that I can say that I'd still see myself dating. And one of them was from a very very long time ago. I'd assume that my picking skills would have improved over the years, and I'd like to say that they have but, I don't know.. (btw, the remix NIN album leaves me wanting more... eh. Half-way through it and still waiting to be pleased.)

I guess what I am trying to say... is that I feel sorry for the people that I talk to (my friends) who come to me, bitching about how they can't find a decent girl/guy.. how there aren't any out there, blah blah blah, and all I can do is just look at the ground and shake my head. I feel some-what sorry for these people, some of them being quite a few years older than me. I can honestly say that I've felt love, and still do, knowing a person that I could literally forgive anything for (just don't like, kill my mother or anything... 'k?) almost having unconditional love (I'd skip the almost, but I don't want to get too sappy here ladies and gents) and I feel bad for people who might never find that in their lives.

I fear being alone more than dying. I fear that I'll find/found that one person that I'd be content/happy with, and later find out that perhaps I'm not of the same... I don't know, caliber as they are to me. I look at some marriages, even in my own family, and I see how they are with each other, how they interact, and I almost feel sorry for them because I know that how it stands right now with me, that I have people in my life that I would be far more happy with than they are with their current situations. Why don't people marry their best friends anymore?

I'm not even going to talk about the people who get married because the girl gets pregnant. What the fuck.

On that note, I don't understand how or why some people feel the need to get married. I mean, let's say you do find this person, that you know you want to, "spend the rest of your life with." Why do you need the validation of marriage in the first place? Isn't being together enough?

And why shouldn't it be?

My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - *kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - ~kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & `scottjamesprebble
My fuck buddies - ~kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

Now... a lot of these people aren't even on my watch. So if you are on my watch and don't see your work on here, please don't be offended, I just grabbed pieces from my favorites.




My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & ~ninjakittykat
My fuck buddies - ~kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

In alphabetical order:



My ho - `dholms
My sex bunnies - ~alexxis & `rebelchic
My stalkers - `insaneone & *vicviper
My loves - `devilicious & `kara
My pimps - `khrass & ~ninjakittykat
My fuck buddies - ~kittynn & ~wilcoxoj

~alexpardee

(I actually have this TATOOED on my arm)


(I own the ORIGINAL of this)



`angelcurls


`foureyes


*girltripped


=glittersniffer


*hakanphotography


*lithiumpicnic


*porcelainveins


~plasticastle


`scottjamesprebble


*ThreeLibras


*yellowworm


=youreuglykbie


~zum